Sunday, March 16, 2014

Family of Three

Ryan and I had an incredible update at this week’s ultrasound appointment, and were on cloud nine.  Baby Caleb is growing and developing at the expected rate, and his little tummy will hopefully only need a couple minor surgeries.  We have seen miracle after miracle these last few months, and know it is because of the prayers and faith of so many. 

It has been incredible to look back on this pregnancy and see where Ryan and I have been stretched.  Personally I have noticed a better ability to let go of things I can’t control.  I am a planner, a stewer, a thinker…and this pregnancy has helped me be more flexible?  Possibly more relaxed?  And my biggest fear before getting pregnant was being able to connect to my baby.  Ryan and I are in LOVE with this baby, and he’s not even here yet.  It has truly been an experience that has brought Ryan and I closer together, and has bonded us with this little one.

Because we were so incredibly happy, we decided to put together a few baby things and set up his little bassinet.  We have a little rocker/bouncer set to go in our living room, his little sleeper next to the bed, and are really making these last few weeks move as slowly as possible!  But it feels so real.  Finally we are rounding the corner, and someday soon we will have our little family of three.

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Monday, March 10, 2014


Pregnancy has been quite the adventure.  Luckily I have been keeping a separate journal (not quite so public) to record every little thing, but I am happy this pregnancy was recorded in a different way recently.

My sweet cousin-in-law Abby offered to take my maternity pictures as my present, and at first I thought “that’s nice…but I don’t think I’ll do it.”  But Ryan encouraged me to take advantage of such a kind offer, and to capture a piece of my pregnancy that I’m sure I’d regret not having one day.

So after a few short, cold hours up the windy canyon, we came away with some amazing pictures.  Better than I could have ever imagined.  They are sweet and simple, and I will forever be grateful to Abby for making it happen!

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Wednesday, March 5, 2014

This Guy

I fell in love with Coldplay when I heard the song “Yellow” back when I was 14.  Different songs have carried me through different times of life, but Coldplay has been my constant.  You can be depressed, ecstatic, reflective…and any song will fit your mood.  The other day, I realized that you can be head over heels in love and Coldplay will still meet your needs.

I was exercising before work this week, and decided to be brave and put my iPod on shuffle.  Usually I stick to my stations:  Coldplay, John Mayer, James Taylor, and the Wailin’ Jennys, but I decided to expand my horizons and actually give other artists a try.  Well after about ten boring songs that couldn't hold my attention for more than 10 seconds, I came upon one of my all time favorite Coldplay songs, “Till Kingdom Come”.  I don’t know if it is because I am a hormonal, emotional mess due to Pregnancy or what, but my eyes welled up with tears and my heart exploded for Ryan when I listened to these words:

Steal my heart and hold my tongue
I feel my time, my time has come
Let me in, unlock the door
I've never felt this way before

Hold my head inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone, someone who hears
For you, I've waited all these years

For you I'd wait 'til kingdom come
Until my day, my day is done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

He makes me feel like like I've never felt, has understood me like no one else on earth can, and is someone I would wait my entire life to be with.  He has truly stolen my heart.  

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