A New Chapter

Last night Ryan and I started talking about what the next few months had in store, and realized that December will be here before we know it.  I started talking about Cal, and how much I love him and want to keep him little, and got emotional about closing this chapter of our lives.  I am extremely grateful to be pregnant, and excited to grow our family, but a little piece of me will miss the one on one time Cal and I were able to have every single day.  Although some days he's a giant mess, or a little whiny, or so active that I think my pregnant self will keel over and die, it's hard to imagine sharing my heart with another baby.  I don't want Cal to feel like an afterthought, or that he's not my number one pal.  Just like when Cal was born, I know that our hearts grow and we can love a little baby the moment we see them, so I know my heart will be able to love these two little boys equally.  But, in the meantime, Ryan and I want to make every last minute special with our little Cal Pal.