The first update will be about my job. I basically get to workout and make yummy, healthy food for a living (more like...for a few bucks a month!). It is definitely a lot more work than I thought it would be - isn't it always? But it has been such a good thing for me. I feel like I am doing something productive, that benefits me, the family, and so many others. It is such a good feeling to know that people see you as someone who adds value to their life.
There are definitely ups and downs, with slow months and discouraging things that happen here and there. At one point, I was letting social media completely overtake my life. I wanted to quit. I was done feeling like a bad mom and a stress case. But Ryan helped me set limits, and more importantly helped me realize that I am the one choosing how much social media I allow to leak into my life. So after taking a step back and taking this business at my pace and not the pace of those before me, it has been much more manageable.
It is still uncomfortable for me to post pictures of my body, but I have had so many people reach out because of my ability to be vulnerable, and who thank me for the inspiration. I still get a little nervous before I post for people to join a clean eating group, but then am surprised when 40 people want to take part. I have never been one who was great at keeping in touch with friends or extended family, but being in this business has taught me that relationships are valuable. I have reconnected with old roommates, teammates from high school, cousins, and so many others. I especially have been able to connect with another family member who is also coaching, and we have been able to get to know one another, talk more, and encourage each other on this journey. And that to me is worth it all.
I don't know what these next few months will bring, but I am hoping I will find my grove, gain confidence, and help others live healthy lives! If it can someday turn into a way I can contribute financially to the family, then that will be the greatest blessing.